So, I was reading a survey one of my friends took and one of the questions was: "Do you fall hard easily?"
That got me thinking about my own life. Do I fall easily for guys?  Answer: Depends.
Boring answer, right?
Let me answer this with an anecdote.
Recently, I went to watch a play Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.  The cast was aged between 5 and 25.  Therefore, pretty much all the lead characters were around my age.  I'm sitting there, enjoying the singing and dancing immensely, when Joseph walks out.  The moment he walked on stage, I was like, "I want him."  Sure, he was a good looking boy, and later he proved himself to be a phenomenal singer and actor and all that.  But he just had this presence that made me take notice and it was so effing hot.  
1--So, my first revelation was that confident, good looking boys that can sing make me want to run to Vegas and elope there and then.
And then one of his brothers came out to sing his song, One More Angel in Heaven.
He was the only other guy on stage that made me take notice almost completely.  But a bonus from Joseph is that this boy was a ginger.  And I will be first to admit that I love me a ginger.  Exhibit A-Rupert.Fucking.Grint.
2--So anyway, second revelation: Gingers that can sing are like Heaven to me.  Perfection.


Do you fall hard easily?
If they're gingers and/or can sing, then hell yes.

Another revelation: Googling Brown Recluse before bed can be slightly disturbing.

Yikes. I knew that last one was going to be a doozy.

And I just realized my theme is Chrstmasy.  Not planned, but I refuse to change it despite the fact it's July.

And I also remembered that the last time I had a father-daughter dance with my daddy was when I was about 6 or 7 for girl scouts.  Unless I'm forgetting something.

Why, hello. It's been almost a year. Just thought I would let you know.
I'm far too lazy to update my entire first year of college.  But I'll summarize. 
Fall quarter: Joined Kappa Delta sorority.  Made some incredible friends. Played powederpuff football. Met some awesome people. Enjoyed it.  Did well in school.
Winter quarter: Don't remember much.  Did well in school again.  Met even more amazing people.  Good times.
Spring quarter: Winding down.  Was betrayed and put in a bad light that I didn't deserve.  Still had the most amazing people ever behind me.  Made nice with the stupid bitches that betrayed me.  Keep your friends close but your enemies closer.  Hung out with the broha a lot more. Mised him.  Did well in school again.  Yay.
Now it's summer.  Been looking for a job and have had zero luck to far.  So effing dumb.

And now for a venting session:
Have you ever had a revelation in your life?  Well, I have quite recently.  And that revelation was that I can't relate to anyone.  I honestly don't have a clue where to start to try and explan that.  I have a feeling this is going to be long.
Let's start with my upbringing.  I grew up in a very loving home with two parents that loved each other and us kids very much, an older brother that was protective and loving in all the right ways, and we always had at least one dog.  It was like the picket fence family.  And I loved it.  I loved every second of it.  Sure, my brother and I argued, but what siblings don't?  Yeah, I didn't always agree with my parents, but I sure as hell agreed with them more than most kids would their own parents. 
Anyway, I spent a lot of time with my dad and brother because my mom worked during the day and my dad had extremely flexible working hours.  So after school, my dad would pick my brother and I up and we would hang out.  It didn't matter where we were or what we were doing, I always enjoyed it.  I enjoyed every second I spent with them.  Then when Mom got home, we would all hug and talk about our days and it was all very picturesque.
With that said, I spent a lot of time with boys.  Every day for years I saw how boys communicated and their thought process and their preference.  My brother wold have friends over and we would play video games or have wars where we would just throw things at each other.  It didn't help much that I lived in a block where I was one of three girls out of a ton of guys.  And I only actually hung out with one of those girls.  And she was a tomboy like no other. 
Despite spending most of my time with boys and my best friend, Erica, I had most gal pals at school.  Infact, I never eally had a close guy friend.  I had spent most of my childhood with boys and all of a sudden, I was scared of boys.  Don't ask me why or how because I honestly do not know.
That lasted all through middle school and high school also.  All of my other friends had guy friends and I just didn't.  And I certainly was not popular.  I wasn't even part of a clique.  I was in the group that kind of flew under the radar.  Like if someone were to say, "So Kaytee..." the reponse would have most likely been, "Who?"  As you can imagine, my brother didn't quite understand this.  He had been playing soccer since he was seven and he was this good looking, outgoing, smart, and confident young guy who was athletic and had all the right friends.  Needless to say, I felt overshadowed like crazy. I still have teachers that know me as 'Nathan's sister'. 
But I still had my close group of friends and a healthy dose of a social life.  I was in choir and sports.  I hae been involved in sports all my life. One right after the other.  I've probably been on more sports teams than anyone else my age.  I wanted to try it all.  Nothing seemed to stick.
Well, in eighth grade an occurence made it so that I had lost all, and I mean all, of my closest friends. It was entirely my fault and I deserved it.  Keep in mind, this is literally a few months before I'm meant to start high school.  So, I made new friends. I made new plans.  It was awkward and uncomfortable, but I got through it.
The problem with hanging out with all girls, is that I didn't quite think like a girl or enjoy what other girls did.  I hate talking on the phone.  When anyone called "just to say hi", it was honestly like torture to me.  I didn't feel the need to hang out every day.  I couldn't get into their ridiculous gossip about who said what to who.  But I had one best friend who got me through it all.  Elise.  She was my one and only through high school.  The one person that was consistent through all four years.
Elise, like nearly ALL of my other friends, came from a home life not like mine.  Her parents were divorced.  Her brothers were much older than her.  Her and her mom didn't get along.  I couldn't relate to her like a best friend should.  But I did try.
Quick tangent: I HATE showing emotion.  Being happy is okay.  Being mad or sad or upset in any way, is not okay.  Plus--and this is very important--I am a VERY private person.  Why are you telling me about you deep, dark secrets?  I don't want to know that.  And do NOT expect me to share that shit with you.  I don't understand how some people are just so open about everthing.  And it seriously irks me when people assume I should just share everything with them.  I do NOT owe you anything thank you very much.
Okay, so anyway.  High school was lame.  I was a weird student.  People knew me now, but that's cause we had gone to school together for a while and plus, I was still doing sports and choir.  They were bound to know me.  But, and I know this is totally lame, I was always the girl in class that quite literally never spoke.  I'm sure people assumed I was a mute.  I think a lot of peope assumed I was just really into school, and I am more than willing to let them think that.  Truth be told, I was just super insecure.  I was insecure and shy.  I wasn't even that great of a student.  Don't get me wrong, I got A's and B's, but I don't think I was as smart as these kids assumed I was.
So right as my senior year was kicking off, my dad passed away.  I'm not going to repeat just how much he meant to be right now because that would take too much space and time and this is already super long.  Clearly I was not really in a good state of mind.  It sucked.  Everything sucked.  My dad had just died.  My brother went into the navy not even a month later.  I lost the two men in my life in less than a month.  It was now just me and my mom. 
I love my mom so incredibly much.  She's my world.  But it was always that my mom and brother were super close and my dad and I were super close.  That's just the way it was.  Now my brother and dad were gone.  It was weird.  It was a lonely time in my life, but I sure as hell wasn't going to let anyone else know that.  I think people are still kind of surprised at how well I handled everything.  I didn't let me grades slip.  I didn't take up any illegal substances.  I wasn't dtching my friends.  I was, more the most part, "normal".  But they couldn't feel what was going on inside.
Senior year was a time of growing up.  I had to grow up a lot in a short amount of time.  And it was also the time that I guess I grew into my looks.  According to my grandma, who is obviously biased, that is the time my face thinned out and my hair was cut in a certain way that just flattered me and my skin cleared up.  One guy that had never looked twice at me was now trying to hang out with me all the time.  And, lo and behold, he was one of the popular guys.  Crazy. It literally blew my mind. Thing is, Elise had a crush on him and I quite honestly just wasn't into him like that.  We hung out like once or twice and talked often, but nothing ever came of it.  I was still a mute in my classes and it got to the point where it was just embarrassing.  Normally, I didn't really care, but then it hit me just how loserish I was.  I hated it.  And to make things worse, Elise, the one friend I had had all four years, drifted away from me.  It was weird because we had three out of five classes together and we sat right next to each other in each one, but we just stopped talking in May.  We didn't fight.  We didn't argue.  We just stopped talking.
So, for all of the end of year senior activities, I had zero close friends.  Not one.  I had friends that I had been close to at one point in my high school career, but not close friends right then.  I clung onto them like crazy because we were forced to go to these things and I refused to be a mute AND alone.  Luckily, these friends are some of the best I have ever had.  Ever.  And I mean that with all of my heart.  I'm so thankful for them.
Then college came.  New people.  New look.  New sorority.  New image. 
The thing about college is, NO ONE KNOWS YOU.  The entire world is at your feet.  First year of college was MY year.  People were telling me that all these boys liked me and this guy thought I was hot and this boy wanted to hang out and every time they said this all I wanted to say was, "Me?"  Why me?  I didn't look any different than the year before.  Why weren't guys all over me in high school?  Then I realized, duh, because I was a loser.
Here's another thing you should know: The thought of having a boyfriend freaks me out.  Committment is not what I'm looking for right now.  Now, you would think, college guys!  They hate committment!  Perfect!  But apparently my new curse is not social ineption.  It's social magnitude.  Guys would say, "Oh, yeah, no committment" and then a week later talk to my best friend about how much they like me.
Trust me, I know this sounds conceited as hell.  And I wish I could explain to you how much this is blowing my mind.  And the weird thing is that all of those magazines are right.  Confidence really is sexy.  I had never been confident in my life and all of a sudden, I was confident and guys truly to respond to that.
Another thing, growing up with guys, my idea of flirting is exchanging witty banter and teasing or something.  I don't do that whole *giggle* *arm touch* *giggle thing.  If I ever did try that, I would probably do it wrong and just embarrass us all.  No, growing up with guys taugt me this:  Guys are just people.  They have feelings and a sense of humor and goals and fears just like girls. They scared the shit out of my in elementary school and middle school and sort of in high school, but suddenly in college, it all just made sense.  And I think that's another reason guys were so taken on me.  I talked to them like friends.  I played video games with them and got mad at them when they let me win.  I made sexual innuendos and avoided dumb drama like the plague.  If I had a problem with someone, I would confront that person and not every other person on the fucking planet.
Pet peeve: "I hate it when someone talks behind your back!  Just tell me to my face!"  Great sentiment.  I like the idea, but the follow through is hardly ever existant.  The fact that you're crying and whining about the person not talking to your face is kind of ironic.  Talk. To. The. Person. Involved.  Really not complicated. And it certainly eliminated some other compications before they even start.
Okay, sorry.  Back on topic.
So I'm in this new world where people like me and they want to hang out with me and for the first time in my life, I'm going to parties and drinking.  I quite liked drinking.  It was  gettaway.  I didn't to worry about a damn thing and I loved it.
Of course, I got that phase of my life over with and am glad I did.  Sure, drinking is still nice, but not every night. Not every party.  Sometimes watching drunk people is more entertaining than being drunk.

So how can I not relate to people?
Well...
One: I came from a very loving home.  I know I'mnot the only one, but I'm certainly one of the few I know.
Two: Guy mentality on almost everything.  Getting along with girls gets harder and harder as time goes by.
Three: I lost someone I love dearly at a young age.
Four: I don't want to sleep with anybody.  And it gets annoying as hell when you realize that is literally pretty much all guys want.  Just stop, guys.  It gets old.
Five: I'm one of the few people I know who is dong well in school.
Six: I'm private.  I don't want to talk about what so and so and I did at that party.  Granted, we probably just talked, kissed at the most, but I don't have to tell you that if I don't want to, so stop making me feel gilty about it.  It's my life.
Seven: I like reading. Sue me.  When you ask to hang out and I say I'm reading, don't get offended.  I really am reading, and sorry, but that is what I would rather be doing at that time.  Get over it.  We'll hang out later.
Eight: I don't have my phone on me 24/7.  I lost it daily.  It takes me hours to reply to texts sometimes.  Please, don't assume I'm ignoring you.  That gets REALLY annoying. "Hey, want to hang out?" Pause.  "Hello?" Pause.  "Kayteeeeeeee." Pause.  "Wtf.  Do you want to hang out?" Pause.  "Why do you always do this?" Pause.  "Fine."  Leave me alone!  My world does not revlove around my phone.  I'm sorry. Jesu christo.
Nine: I'm innocent.  Sometimes I do and say things than can be misinterpreted.  Like if I'm at a party and I talk to you, it's because we're at a party and socializing is what you do.  It's not because I like-like you.  It's not because I want to sleep with you.  It's not because I think anything is going to come out of it.  I'm doing it because you're interesting and I like meeting new people.  And when I say things, please don't take almost anything I say literally.  I joke around a LOT and I KNOW a lot of the stuff I say can be seen a certain way.  Just know that I'm all talk.
Ten: There are more but I'm tired as helland I just want to pos this. Adeiu. 
Ignore spelling/grammar errors.  My bad.

Whoops.
Let's get this rolling!

September 4: I went to lunch with Devon, Garrett, Kyla, and Mariah.  Garrett and Devon came over and we hung out for a long time. Then I went in search of a fish tank and some fishies.  But then I realized I know nothing about fish and Garrett does, so I decided to wait until Garrett could come with me. Then I had an eye appointment.
Sept. 5: Devon and Kyky came over.
Sept 6:  I went to the Candelight Pavillion with my mom and grandma to see a musical called All Shook Up.  I was pleasantly surprised.  It was very well done and it was so funny. I recommend you YouTube that ish. Especially if you like Elvis. Oh, and a ton of cute boys work there so WOOP!  Later I went out with Kyla, Devon, Mikey, Carlos, and...Lizzie? I believe?  We just shopped for a bit and got these amazing smoothie things.
Sept 9: I went to my high school's girls tennis match and brought me cuuuute puppy.  Garrett held her most of the time. lol. I hung out with Garrett most of the time during that. Then Andrew, Eric, Brooke, Devon, and MANUE came. Manue is the foreign exchange student from France that Andrew hosted a few years back.  We lovelovelove her. So we just hung out for a long time.
Sept. 11: Devon, Garrett, and I went shopping for fish and fish things.  It was an adventure.  We also went to Dev's house and then Garrett's house.  Garrett has this effing sweet salt water fish tank.  I'm in love with it.  Kyla and Mariah also came over.
Sept. 12: Garrett and Devon and I did some more shopping and bought my fish Mufasa.  Then we just hung out at my house for a looong time. That night I just hung with my mom and bonded. It was actually really nice.
Sept. 13: I dropped my mom off at the fair.  Then I got my two other fish, Moses and Medea.  I painted my dresser aaaaand...my grandma came over.
Sept 15: I went to another tennis match and got me some In-N-Out.
Sept. 16: I picked up my new glasses.  They be hooooot.
Sept. 17: I went to Disneyland with my mommy. =]  It was so much fun.  Even if she did get kind of sick on Thunder Mountain. haha
Sept 19: I had this weird burst of energy and worked out a lot.  And I also tanned.
Sept 20: I went to the Dodgers game! Kyla and I went with Devon because her Karate thing does demonstrations before the games so we got to go, like, backstage.  It was really cool.  Then we met up with Garrett, Brooke, Eric, Caitlin, and Andrew.  Devon did amazing and then we went to our seats.  It was so much fun.  We threw peanuts, got yelled at my anal people, and learned tricks.  It. Was. Fun.
Sept 23: Mufasa died. Sad, sad day.  Mariah and Kyla came over to hang out.  My madre and I drove to my new school so I could get a feel for the campus.  Then we went to Target.
Sept 24: Bronco Fusion! So, my school starts super late and Bronco Fusion is like a 'Welcome back to school' day! I went to different workshops and got to know a lot of people.  I met up people I haven't seen in literally four years.  We hung out.  I went to Ellen's dorm and we hung out some more.  Went to Club Rush.  Met some awesome people.  Then I stayed for the RX Bandits concert. And a really cute guy named Chris came over and talked to me.  Like a loser, I didn't get his info, so I haven't talked to him since. =[ Bummer.
Sept 25: SCHOOL STARTED! My first day of college! I only had one class and it was IGE so it was all discussion.  I loved it. I had a really good time. haha
Sept. 26: I had public speaking.  I had fun. <3
Sept. 28: I went to the fair with Andrew, Garrett, Eric, Michael, Brooke, Devon, Kyla, Mariah, and Caitlin.  I got me some sunglasses.  We looked at all the animals.  We hung out and had fun.  Then we went to the Gavin Rossdale and Lifehouse concert.  Amazing.  Simply awesome.  We lost our car and were convinced it was stolen for a long time.
Sept 29: I went to my public speaking class.  Then I had a two and a half hour break until my next class so I did some homework, got to know the campus really well, hung out with Amanda, and made some friends because I had nothing else to do. haha  Then I had math.  It was alright. Then I went to the mall and got some books because...I love to read. lol. I also got lotion and a new purse. Good times.
Sept. 30: After class I went to Vons to get some of those amazing sugar cookies and some lunchables.
October 2: Hung out with Kelly after class.
October 3: Went to my math professor's office because I had to.  I also had my first speech in public speaking.  Went well, I think.
October 4: Nate came home.  So I hung out with him and his girlfriend Ashley pretty much all day.  It was kind of rainy that day which was AWESOME since it's been crazy hot.  I got a smoothie to celebrate which doesn't  make much sense, but whatever.
October 5: Nate left. =[
October 6: Mariah and Kyla and I got some shirts to paint during our break.
October 7: Jen, a super duper nice girl from Kappa Delta invited me to hang with her and her sisters while the franternities got their bids.  I met a lot of really cool people.  It was a lot of fun. That night I went to the Bonita choir concert with Joe and Sarah.  I have extremely talented friends. BY the way.
October 8: Mariah and I went to Kyla's house to make our shirts for Smudgepot, the rivalry football game at Bonita.  That was fun.
October 10: I went to class, came home and took me a nap.  Then Mariah and Kyla came over to get ready for Smudgepot.  We painted our hair green and got all fancied up.  We got some food and then went to school.  I saw my cousin which was awesome!  We ended up losing the game, but...So after that, a big group of us went to 21 Choices. There were some creepers.  It was weird.  Very weird.
October 12: Mariah, Kyla, and Andrew and I went to the movies. We had then ENTIRE theater to ourselves so, naturally, we ran around and raced each other through the rows and danced during all the songs.  Andrew slid down the banister.  Hilarious.
October 13:  I didn't go to math because I was feeling like crap. But I had to go to a meeting for public speaking, so that kind of defeated the purpose of missing math.  But the meeting went well.  I guess.
October 15: Kappa Delta stuff! AHHH! Then after that, we went out to dinner at Chili's.  So much fun.
October 16: I went to the pancake steps at U hour which is where the Greeks hang out.  Marilynn and I hung out at the Marketplace and saw cute boys everywhere.  College rocks.  I also met a lot of cool people.  Then we went to class and watched Equus which is a weird fucking movie. Then I went to football practice.  It was fun.  Our coach looks like Matt Damon which..is always a plus.  Then we went to Tila's place for dinner.  Then Marilynn and I went to Krys's place to get ready.  Then we went to the Phi Tau party and danced all night.  Amazing night.
October 17: AHH! Kyla and Mariah came over to get ready with me. After that, we got some food and gum.  Then we went to the Anberlin concert! So much fun! We were in the balcony so we could watch everyone mosh and crowd surf.  There For Tomorrow, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, and Anberlin were AMAAAAAAAAAZING. Holy crap.  After the concert, we got some shakes and came back to my house.  We talked for a bit and fell asleep.
October 18: I woke up and my friends were already gone. lol. I sleep too long. Then I went to the Norton Simon museum for class with Marilynn and we just hung out for a long ass time.  Then we went to Tila's place for a sisterhood gathering.  It was great.  Marilynn and I went costume shopping and got some cleats for football.
October 19: Football practice! Gah! So much fun! A lot of running, but so worth it.  I love my sisters! <3 And my coach! I just love everyone!

Mmmkay, I have some pictures, but, like always, I'll save them for another entry.  Shit that took me forever to write. I'm so easily distracted.

This is going to be...a picture update. I'll update the rest of the month soon.  Hopefully.

( Onwaaaaaaaard! )
I seriously have a million more pictures, but...I don't feel like posting them just yet...or I'm still waiting for Dev to send them. Adieu.

I have TWO MONTHS to update? Holy shit.
And lucky me...my computer is being a little bitch. RAWR.

July 1: I had a dentist appointment.  My brother had my car in San Diego so my grandma had to give me a ride.
July 2: Kyla, Devon, and I went to the mall. We bought underwear.  It was hilarious. Then we went to Chipotle.
July 4: Oooh man. So much fuuun! My brother and I met my mom at our friend's house for the parade. It's boring, but it's tradition, so...After the parade, there's always a BBQ.  Well, my brother went and met up with two of his friends.  Then they all stopped by the BBQ. Nate and his friends left and my mom and I went home. Then my uncle Tim came over with his wife and two kids.  The kids played Wii.  Then my mom kicked all of our asses in bowling.  Theeeen, my brother came home with his friends and we all went to my aunt Ginny's house.  I changed my first diaper! Okay, I lied.  But I did observe the diaper being changed.  And then I got to hold the baby with said diaper for a long time! AHHH! I love her.  Then, as is also tradition, we went to fireworks. Katie, Eric, and I entertained ourselves with glow sticks.  THEEEEEN, after the fireworks, I came home to find my brother having a Fourth of July party.  He invited me out. So I got to know a lot of his good friends which was SWEET.  Then I was nominated to go on a beer run. So I got into the car with Josh and Chris.  They got the alcohol and I got to hold Josh's stick thing. (That sounds...very wrong indeed.)  We returned to the party and I got a little more than tipsy. It was cool because I got to hang out with my cousins who I hardly ever get to see.  And A lot of Nate's friends were talking to me and whatnot.  There was a fight.  There were cops.  MAN it was awesome. 'Twas amazing.
July 5: Booo. My mom woke me up early to say goodbye to my cousins who had stayed the night since they were drunk. lol. I felt soo sick. It was gross.  Then I went with my mom and grandma to drop Nate off at the airport in San Diego. I sort of threw up.  It was nasty.  But it wasn't too bad. After Nate was dropped off, us girls got some food.  When I got home, I went to sleep and slept for 20 hours straight. Hell yes!
July 8: I went to the beach with Kyla and Devon.  We got ice cream and went to the pier.  On the pier, we ran into Andrew, Eric, and Michael by coincidence.  It was sort of hilarious and amazing.
July 10: Picked up my dogs from the groomer.  I went to Borders and picked up the Twilight book. Got some Del Taco. Later that night I went to 21 Choices with my madre.
July 12: MY calendar says I went to Target and got New Moon, but I don't recall that at all. OH WAIT! Yes I do. Neverrrrmind.
July 14: Went to Borders and got Eclipse.  You could say I was a little obsessed.
July 15: Orientation for college! I got up super early. Got lost on the way.  Found it.  Then we had to sit through this annoyingly boring talk thing for forever.  Then we were separated into groups depending on our majors.  People in my major were effing badass.  After all of those workshops, people started to leave unless you were staying the night in dorms.  I was staying the night.  The Night Crew ate some dinner and then we went and played games.  It was the most fun I've had in a very long time.  I got close to this one boy. <3 After the game, we went to the Student Center where the pool tables and games all were.  My crew watched a movie for a long time.  Then a few of us decided to go out and have a little fun. We joined the people on the dance floor and...one thing led to another...and I hooked up with someone. Ahhh. haha. I'm blushing right now. After the Student Center, we went back to the dorms.  I hung out with people most of the time.  Then I sort of...maybe hooked up with another guy. AHHHH! I'm such a whore. lol. It was fun though.  Very fun. ;-)
July 16: Orientation continued. We registered for classes and I met my advisor.  He seriously seems like a hoot. I'm glad I have him. After we registered for classes, we went to the campus BBQ.  I ate my food and then a group of us went to club rush.  I signed up for every club with cute boy representatives. Naturally. I also signed up for more clubs that actually interested me, but you know...Then we had to take a TWO HOUR tour of campus in the burning heat.  It was sort of horrific. I went home at one point.
July 18: I got my last shot for HPV! WOO! Nate came home that day.
July 20: I went to San Clemente to my grandma's beach house.  Tim and Eric joined us.  Then we all went out to dinner.  We're pretty sure the waitress was on something.  It was funny. Then we went back and watched a movie.  It was good. lol. We went to bed but I wasn't tired since it was only about 11:00. So I laid away for FOREVER to the sounds of Tim snoring and Eric sleep talking.  I finally drifted off at about 5:00. It was horrible.
July 21: Woke up way too early for comfort.  I went to the beach with Eric and Tim and they helped me get over my fear of the ocean. lol.  They helped me boogie board. Then I sat out and tanned.  I came home so I could go to Kyla's house and have a movie night with her and Devon.  We also shared stories.  It was epic.
July 23: Went to the beach with Kyla and Devon.  Saw an extremely cute guy that we nicknamed Brock.  He was so hot.
July 24: I house sat! It was sort of amazing.  I got paid to sit around and do nothing!
July 25: I went shopping with Kyla. Then later in the day I went to Red Robin with Lizzy, Becca, and X. Then we saw Mamma Mia.  Lizzy became obsessed. haha
July 26: Went to 21 Choices!
July 29: Went to the beach with Garrett, Devon, and Kyla.  It was a hoot and a half.

August 2: Devon invited me and Kyky to her 'Bring a friend to karate' day. I like to think Kyla and I were hilarious. The Master...person chose me to demonstrate on and it was so much fun.  He was using badass black belt moves on me and I was having a grand 'ol time.
August 3: Kyla left for Italy. Boooo.
August 4: I went to Disneyland with Leann, Laura, Cheslea, and KT.  It was a lot of fun.
August 6: I went to the beach with Caitlin, Eric, Brooke, Andrew, Devon, Garrett, and Michael. We went to Chipotle and I made friend with this guy that talked to me about parking. We hung out at the beach for a long time.  Then we browsed through shops and got free drinks from this new company.  The drinks were awesome.  Then we all went to Eric's house and went night swimming! We played Marco Polo and I seriously dominated.  And Andrew made this epic save.  Caitlin almost got me and he pulled me away like effing Superman status.  It was amazing. We hopped into the spa and talked.  Then Andrew decided we should go to 21 Choices.  So we got our ice cream and went to the Point in a town near us. We had to sneak in because it's kind of illegal.  But we got there and ate our ice cream.  Then we laid in this adorable little circle and looked at the sky for a very long time. Seriously one of the best nights of summer.
August 8: Lizzy's birthday party! Becca, X, and I went to Lizzy's house and watched the first Sisterhood movie. Then we went to the movies and saw Sisterhood 2 movie. We went and got ourselves a shirt for the Sisterhood of the Travelling shirt since we're all going to college. After the movie, we met up with Abby and went to Olive Garden. Yummy yummy! After that we went to Lizzy's house and bonded and such. I had a migraine all day and when we laid down for sleep, I was miserable. In the middle of the night, I woke up and was sick.  So like a loser I had to bail on Lizzy's 18th birthday party and I went home.
August 9: I felt better. OLYMPICS!
August 12: Mariah and I got some smoothies and then went to the park to catch up since she had just gotten home.  Then we went to the mall.  I loooove her.
August 14: I dropped off Leann's sunglasses at her house. I LOVE OLYMPICS.
August 15: Visited the grandma.  She got a new kitty and it's probably the only cat I've ever liked.  We're friends.
August 16: Mariah and I went to the mall, Target, Starbucks, and park.  We bonded for about 10 million years.
August 17: Kyla had her birthday party at the beach with Mariah, Garrett, Krissie, Devon, and ME! We had a nice little dinner at Ruby's. I love my fwends. <3
August 20: Kyla and I played Garrett and Devon in tennis.  They won. But...I don't want to talk about it.  Then we just hung out.
August 21: Kyla and I went to see Pineapple Express and it was sooo funny.  Then we drove around a bit.  We grabbed some yogurt form 21 Choices and talked for a long time.  Then we went back to her house where Chase and Devin (Yes, a different Devin than Devon...) were hanging out.  Devin talked to us about his college life.  It was...liberating. lol.
August 22:  KYla, Mariah, and I went to the mall. We bought books because we're awesome opposums. Then Mariah and I went to Target to find something for my camera but they didn't have it...BOOOO Target. BOOO.
August 23: I went to my aunt's house and hung out with my cousins.  I ROCK the drums in Rock Band.  Seriously, they were made just for me.
August 24: Olympics ended. Sad, sad day. I went to Katie's play Les Miserables. It was very well done.  The cast was amazing. I'm just retarded and I didn't really understand it...But I assure you it was good.  Grandma joined me and my mom for dinner.
August 25: Mariah and I got some smoothies.  We drove around aimlessly. We went to my house and watched Red Eye.  Then we went and saw House Bunny.  I liked that movie. hahaha
August 26: Went to lunch with a very special boy. =] School started so most of my friends are bust during the day.  Losers. =[
August 29: I met Devon, Mariah, and Kyla to get smoothies during their lunch hour.  Then we got some bagels.  Mariah and Kyla had to go back to school but Devon was done.  I went to Devon's house and we made cookies and brownies.  And by we, I mean she did.  I played with her dog and danced around.
August 31: Holy crap. SOOO much fun. Mariah and I went to Kyla's house for a sleepover. We got to her house and tried to figure out where to go to eat for like...an hour since we kept on getting distracted. We finally decided on Applebee's.  Then we went to this amazingly cool new yogurt place in town. When we got back to her house, we had a 2-3 hour photoshoot.  And not a sexy photoshoot.  Like...the funnest photoshoot ever. I have pictures and lots of them. Fear not. Then we watched Identity and it was a good movie! John Cusack kicks ass!

September 1: Woke up. Had breakfast. Hung out with my bff's for a few hours.  Came home.
September 2: Kyla, Mariah, and Garrett came over during their lunch hour. Garrett is in love with my dogs.  It's adorable.  I also went to the bank that day.
September 3: I got Anberlin tickets! AHHH!

Finally done! Remind me never to wait this long to update ever again. Sheesh!
Pictures soon hopefully.

Let's see if this even posts.

P.S.
All Time Low, Mayday Parade, Paramore, and McFly are the greatest bands EVERRR.

Shiiiiit.
I was watching Jesse McCartney's video for Leavin' and oh my dear God. He makes my hormones go on overdrive.
Have you seen that video? Have you seen him?
Sexual. And I love it.

And now...for pictures!








P.S.
I would sell my soul to be the girl in that video.

Apparently I forgot a little something last update.  On May 21 I went to Maggie Moo's with Devon.  And then we went to Staters so Devon could buy stuff.
Moving on!

Hola! Monthly update time!
May 23:I did me senior speech for my teacher.  I aced that bitch! WOOP! My brother came home.  I went to Von's with my mom and bought groceries. 
May 24: I went to see Prince Caspian with the crew and a few other people.  I actually adored that movie.  And not even because two extremely cute guys were in it.  I bet you're thinking 'OMFGBENBARNESLOVE!'.  But for some reason, I don't really find him that attractive.  I was talking about William and Skandar.  And I know Skandar is about a year younger than me, but I looked around a little and found out people as old as 24 fancy him, so I felt a lot better.  Those boys are gorgeous and HELL.  Anyway...After the movie, we all went to Warehouse and got some pizza.  Then we went to KyKy's house and hung out for a very long time.  Eventually, the boys left.  The gals had a sleepover.  'Twas fun!
May 25: I got gas on my way home from Kyla's since I was on empty.  Then I went to Border's with Nate.  That was actually really nice.  And later that night, my friend Hillary came over.  More happened with that situation, but I shall go no further.
May 26: No school so we all went to Chelsea's house.  We had a nice barbeque and we tried our hardest to play ping pong (well).  It was so much fun.  Then we went inside and various people played guitar and we all sang and rocked out.  So much fun.
May 27: Probably one of the best days in a long time. It was the first night of the pop show for choir.  Basically, the pop show is when we sing modern songs instead of that classical shiz and we have costumes and choreography.  In other words, fun.  So, I got to miss all day of school to go to the dress rehearsal.  I saw Cassie!  LOVE!  It was so much fun. I got a ride with Kyla, a guy from the tennis team named Cameron, and his friend named Alec back to the school.  I got home and got ready.  Then I met with Kyla to get food at Vons before the bus took us to the venue.  We were running uber late, but we made it! Fear not!  We sat by some truly epic people on the bus.  The actual show went very well!  And then the best part of the night, I saw the cutest guy of all time/long time family friend/hottie mchot man.  And he's only a few years older.  We talked for ages.  WHEW!
May 28: As if Buddha was trying to mock me for having such a good day before, I had a lousy day.  I was lied to and betrayed by one of the few people in my life I actually trusted.  (Not Kyky and Mariah...I love them to death).  And I also found out a certain relative of mine was a douche bag hypicrate.  Pop show went well, but a lot of other things irked me to no end.
May 29:  The last day of pop show.  It went really well.  I got some ice cream.  Performed.  And after the pop show, I went to dinner with a lot of people I lovelovelove.  It was so much fun.
June 2: I went with Kyla to the band performance.  It was an experience. lol.  We sat in the middle of a swamp-like puddle.  It smelled.  But we did get to laugh at everyone that unsuspectingly walked through it.  We talked to a lot of people.  Then we went into the gym and watched color guard...enough said.  After color guard was drumline.  Drumline is amazing.  No words can describe how great they are.  Look them up!  And on my calendar I have 'Really bad night' written down and I can't remember why.  But apparently I had a really bad night.
June 3: I went to senior awards night.  Got a scholarship and another award that I don't remember. Oops... I also had my official senior board speech that day. I rocked it.
June 4: I went with my mom to the mall to shop.  It was a lot of fun.  And she knows how to get some amazing discounts! I could learn a thing or two from her! lol.  We also hit the bank.  Oh, and I didn't go to school because it was pointless. =]
June 5: Every 15 Minutes.  If you don't know what that is, I suggest you look it up.  It's powerful and effective. And that night Kyla, Mariah, and a buuuunch of other people went to the drama play.  The play was so funny.  Chelsea was in it and she was bloody hilarious.  I wish I hada  video or something because I cannot explain to you how hilarious she was.  At all.  She absolutely 100% stole the show and everyyyyyone knew it.  Fantastic. WHEW. I'm done.
June 6: The second part of Every 15 Minutes.  Again, look it up. And later that night we went shopping for makeup since the prom was that night. And i Just remembered why June 2 was such a bad night.  Won't get into that. haha.  So anywho, we went to the mall and went to Sephora and the lady did our makeup all pretty.  Fun to the EXTREME.
June 7: PROM!  I went to Kyla's early so we could get ready together.  Then everyone came and well took pictures.  Then we got into the limo and had a banging good time.  We went to dinner and only stayed for a few minutes. lol.  Then we went to the actual dance.  SOOO much fun.  GAH! And after prom, we went to the ice rink and played broom ball.  I...fell down a lot. lol. But I was aggressive!
June 8: I got my car serviced.  Good times indeed.
June 9:  Senior surprise day.  In other words, lock you on the football field in 115 degree weather with two blow up games that deflated in a very short amount of time.  We did get our yearbooks, though.  That was fun.  Spent most of those hours memorizing every page since we were all so bored.  My mom was working the snack bar.  She's on very good terms with the vice principal so I was allowed to leave early.  I rock!  Well, my mom does at least.  I got my car back that day.  And that night was the choir banquet.  It was so much fun hanging out with everyone.  I got the Director's Award!  Which was epic! Like, not going to lie, but I wanted to cry. I'm going to miss choir and T. Helm so much.
June 10:  My bffs4l made Chambers!  WOOOOOOOOP!
June 11: In English, we had to get into small groups and perform a play for the class.  In sixth period, we got together to rehearse.  I quite enjoyed it except a stupid bitch and her Douche boyfriend had to ruin it for me.  Whatever, I'm over it. 
June 12: Performed the play.  Owned it.  It was my grandma's birthday so I got her a card from and my mom and a cake.  I made blue icing which thoroughly amused my grandma and mom.  We had a nice dinner.
June 13: I went over to X's house with the other SLP's.  You see, during our freshmen year and sophomore year, we made this documentary of sorts inspired by the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants.  It basically documented our summers and our antics.  We agreed to watch it ONLY on our last day of school our senior year.  So we watched that.  It was both hilarious and very touching.  We all got a little choked up. After X's house, I went to Kyla's house with the crew and Garrett...Garrett is actually part of the crew now, so...just...keep that in mind? Anyway! We hung out for a long time.  Drove around aimlessly.  Went to Blockbuster.  Did a lot of fun things. lol  I also got gas.
June 15: My cousin David and I had a combined grad party at my aunt Ginny's house.  It was nice seeing everyone.  I had a good time.  It was kind of a bummer because it was Father's day, though. I love you, Daddy. I miss you.
June 16: The seniors signed out of school.  I stayed a little bit longer to see Mariah's performance.  She did great.  I liked it.  Then Nate and I went to the mall.  I don't think we bought anything, but we wandered around for ages.  Then we grabbed some food.
June 17: Senior breakfast.  I sat with X, Becca, and Lizzy and Ryan and James.  It was really nice.  REALLY nice. 
June 18: Graduation! We had a little rehearsal earlier that day in the 120 degree field.  It was brutal.  I was miserable, but I'm sure pretty much everyone was.  We took our panoramic picture.  After the rehearsal, I went to Jamba Juice with Ryan, Alex, Hani, Sarah, James, and Kurt. haha. They're an interesting bunch.  And that night was graduation.  It was so much fun.  All the speeches were really nice.  It had cooled down.  Just amazing.  And then we went to gradnite.  It was so much fun.  There's too much to mention and this is already extremely long.
June 19: Got back from Gradnite at 5:30 in the morning.  Blooming tired, but happy.
June 21: Went to my friend's graduation party.  So. Much. Fun.
June 22: I went to the beach with Kyla and Mariah.  We got a little lost...my bad, but we made it!  We tanned and played in the water.  I burned, but it turned into a tan, so WOOT!  Then we shopped at those cute little beach-side shops. We ate and stuff, too.  Funfunfun!
June 24: Mariah left for Michigan for SIX WEEKS.  Boooo!Got gas again.  Then I went to the bank to make a deposit.  The I went to my school to pick up my diploma.  Then I went to the vet and picked up cat food for my grandma and I dropped that off at her house.  After that, I went to Quiznos because...I was hungry.
June 26: Got my dog from the groomer and got some food.
June 27: I went to the movies with Kyla, Garrett, Devon, Mikey, and Karina.  We saw Wall.e.  It was cute.  I wouldn't see it again anytime soon.
June 28 (today...finally...): I went to my uncle's wedding!  It was a very confusing service.  But I'm so happy for him.  And then I went to the reception.  Lots. And. Lots. Of. Alcohol.  But that's expected at weddings.  And of course, it's one of those rare gatherings where no one cares who is drinking.  So all the underage teens are having a jolly good time and all of the adults are drunk.  It was very entertaining.  Very much so.  I had a good time.  Especailly when we did the toast and my 15yo cousin DOWNED his Champaigne before his drunk mother could tell him not to.  Like I said, good day.  Oh, and I also briefly saw Kyky, Garrett, and Devon. Good!

Expect pictures. Probably tomorrow.

Updates!
May 9-Went to the thrift store with Kyla and Mariah to look for dresses for choir. Then we went to Kyla's house to just hang.  Krissie joined us.  Then we went to BJ's and ate.  Then we went to Starbucks and visited with a ton of people.  Then we went to Blockbuster and picked up a few movies.  Then we had a movie night! I used the word 'then' a lot.
May 10-I went to my step cousin's play.  It was Oklahoma! and she lives about an hour away.  I went with my mom and grandma.  We went to my uncles house and hung out for a bit.  Then my uncle and step aunt went to dinner with the three of us.  Then we went to the play.  It was actually pretty good.  The lead was hot. And so were a few other boys. haha.
May 11-Went to the Elephant Bar with my mom and grandma for mother's day.  It was really nice.  My mom got the three of rings as a symbol of bondage. I probably used that word wrong and you're all probably like wtf? Whatever. I think you get the idea.  Then we went to 21 Choices.  Epic.
May 15-Took the AP Econ test. Sucked. I'd be lucky to get a 2.
May 16- Since I had fun at my step cousins play a week before, I decided to go again.  My mom and g-ma didn't want to go, so I drove alone.  I saw the play again, thought the same boys were cute.  My cousin and I had talked previous to this, so she knew I was coming and we decided to hang out after he play.  I went with her to the cast party at Denny's.  Two of the super cute boys were there and sat at our table.  They were high.  Literally.  It was hilarious. But still so hot.  I didn't get home until 3. It was amazing. lol.
May 17-The boys tennis had their car wash and I went for a few hours.  Later that night, they had their banquet at the coach's house.  Kelsey and I both went. It was pretty fun.  I got to hang with one of the guys I fancy. Epic.
May 19-I took my friend Chandler home.  He's hilarious.  Later that night, I went to city hall with a few other choir kids to be recognized for our accomplishments in D.C. We had to get up and make a speech and all.  It was kind of fun.
May 20- We had our senior meeting to find out what was ahead of us until graduation on June 18. I'm so excited.  Oh, and I also found out that my best friend has been lying to me for the last three years.  That was pretty fun.  Not.  I still don't know if I should confront her about it.
May 22 today-I didn't go to school.  I didn't feel like it.  And I wasn't going to do anything anyway, so I didn't.  I also had a dentist appointment.  A guy cleaned my teeth.  He was kind of creepy. But nice, I guess.  After that, I had this intense craving for brownie mix so I went to the store.  A really cute guy was at the counter and he gave me this massive discount.  I only had to pay one dollar for the box.  Good day. Oh, and I also picked my dog up from the groomer, but that's not very exciting. I have to present my senior project tomorrow. I'm not very excited about that. Booooo.

A lot has happened this past month. Holy cow.
Yikes.

April 4:  It was technically the start of Spring Break.I went to Elise's house and we spent the afternoon drawing in her driveway with chalk. I've got pictures. Don't you worry.
April 5: Our friend Ryan won a debate (like, a legit debate), so Elise and I went to his house at night and drew a trophy in chalk on his driveway.  Then Elise threw rocks at his window and he came out.  We sat outside and talked for a very long time.
April 6: A lot happened. I was with Elise and Ryan.  It started out with a late night visit to the mall.  Except...the mall was closed.  So, we went to Starbucks and drank and talked for a really long time.  We bonded.  Then we got bored and drove to The Point in our town.  We were just listening to music and talking.  There were two other cars there.  Then the cops came and questioned us.  I showed them my ID.  They saw that I was 18, assumed the other two were 18, and let us go. It is so sweet being 18.  We didn't want to go home just yet so we cruised around town.  Then I got hungry so we went to Carl's Jr.  After that we went to T. Phillips, the only bar in our town.  'Twas fun.
April 7: Elise, Ryan, and I tried the mall again.  This time it was a success.  I got some new jeans and a snazzy new shirt.
April 8: Went to Disneyland with the twin.
April 9: Back story time.  My mom's boss bought me a dog.  A Maltese.  In case you don't know, Maltese's are very expensive.  He's a great guy.  Anyway, since I got her in November, he's been wanting me to bring her in to the work so he could see us together.  I finally had the time to do that.  So, I drove in unfamiliar territory with a small puppy in my lap.  Jasmine got car sick and threw up in my lap.  True story.  That was...unpleasant.  And, I still had about twenty minutes to drive when she did that.  So, I get to her work and my mom helps me clean myself and the car up.  All of my mom's work people were surrounding me and talking to me and they all knew me and I had no idea who they were.  Whatever.  I figured it out.  So I hung out with everyone for a while.  Met my mom's boss. Top notch guy.  And kind of cute.  Then I drove home with the puppy. No more throw up. WOOT!
April 11: Kyla, Mariah, and I went shopping.  I drove us to Pasadena to go to this massive Forever 21. We're a good driving team. haha.  Anyway, we had to find a dress for this dinner we would be going to.  I'll explain later.  So we shopped all day.  Found our dress.  Ate.  Had some ice cream.  And came home.
April 12:  I went to San Diego to visit my brother!  He was officially stationed in Coronado now instead of stupid Illinois.  So, my mom and I drove there and visited with him.  His friend joined us.  You know, Navy boys are amazing.  Enough said. So we drove around the town.  Went to the mall so the boys could buy some swim trunks and other stuff.  Then the boys did some errands.  Most of the visit was very relaxing and nice.  We drove home that day.
April 15: V. Boys tennis had an away game and I went. I got to spend the whole day with the guy I fancy.  I listenened to his ipod and we talked and omg. I'm totally in like.
April 16: My mom's birthday! We had a nice dinner and relaxed.  Then I had to pack for Washington D.C.  You see, my choir was going to D.C. for a choir competition.  Well, I couldn't find my cell phone. I started to think of all the places it could be.  It wasn't in my house.  It wasn't in my car.  So I drove to the school where the tennis match was yesterday.  By this time, it's about 9:30 and totally not legal to be trudging on campus.  So I did this whole mission impossible stunt since there were janitors and stuff at the school.  Turns out, my phone wasn't even there.  So then I went to MY school.  It wasn't there either.  At this point I'm sort of panicking a little because I had to leave for D.C. in a few hours and I had no phone.  Siiigh.
April 17:  I woke up at 3:30 in the morning.  I got ready and went to school.  I met my choir out front at about 4:00.  Then we all piled into two buses and set out for the John Wayne airport.  We got to the airport, checked in our luggage, went through security...you know. The usual.  RIGHT before we boarded the plane, I saw a guy that looked EXACTLY like Casey Feitler.  You know, Ryan Sheckler's best friend.  I'm like full on staring at him and I'm pretty sure he saw me.  haha. That was fun. Anyway, we boarded the plane.  I was lucky enough to be by Mariah.  We had a layover in San Francisco.  That wasn't so bad.  Then we boarded the plane again to Dulles.  We talked, listened to music, wrote notes, made fun of people, made fun of ourselves, tried to sleep, and played games.  FINALLY, we landed.  When we were waiting for our transportation, I was sitting on my luggage and it kind of gave out on me.  I almost fell and nearly half of my choir saw.  My choir teacher just laughed and rolled his eyes.  Goooooood times.  So we get on our bus and drive to a buffet.  By this time, we're all delirious with sleep and hunger.  That always makes for some good times.  So we FINEEALLEE (inside joke...) got to the buffet.  We absolutely devoured our food.  Then we listened to to different people's stories.  Then Kyla got all protective of her ice cream.  "Hey, Kyla, is that yogurt or ice cream?"  "MY ice cream." haha.  Then we got to our hotel.  Showered.  Bonded.  Slept. 
April 18:  We went to the Arlington Cemetary.  We saw 454356456546546765754756 graves.  We saw the Kennedy burial.  The Roosevelt burial.  It was intense.  Then we saw the changing of the guard for the Unknown Soldier.  That was boring and hot, but also kind of cool.  Then we went to the Jefferson Memrorial, changed into our new choir shirts, and sang in front of the Jefferson Memorial.  That was pretty badass.  We went back to the hotel and got ready for this Chinese restaurant.  We put on dresses and nice clothes because we had a concert planned for right after.  A concert we would see not perform.  So we all looked spiffy.  So we ate at this nice little place.  When we were done, we found out we couldn't go to the concert because we would be late.  So intstead we went to the Lincoln Memorial.  It was SO pretty.  The sun was setting and it was just gorgeous. Then we went back to the hotel and bonded some more.  I could not sleep for the life of me.  I had a shit pillow and a raging headache.  It was brutal.
April 19:  It was performance day! We put on our dresses and suits and whatnot.  We arrived at this gorgeous church.  We watched one school perform.  They were not exactly...fantastic.  Then we went to the practice room.  We warmed up and our teacher had a fit.  It was hilarious.  Then we performed. We rocked it.  Then we watched Chambers.  Kyla, Mariah, and I had a dilemma.  We couldn't figure out if this person in front of us was a guy or a girl.  We debated that for quite some time.  We decided it was a girl.  Chambers rocked it.  Then we went back onto the buses and changed into normal clothes.  Then we went to the Air and Space museum.  It was fun.  We ate overpriced food.  Me, Kyla, Mariah, and Chelsea had so much effing fun.  I love those girls.  ROOMIES!  Anywho, we had a ton of fun.  After a long day of bonding and walking, we went back to the hotel.  We had to get ready for the awards banquet.  Maybe this is a girl thing, but I LOVE getting ready.  Getting all fancy.  So. Much. Fun.  Dana came over and did my hair.  That was an experience. haha. Kelsey did touch ups.  Makeup and clothes. Fuuuun.  So, then we got back onto the bus (we literally spent more time on that stupid bus than in the hotel the entire trip. No lie.) and went to the place.  I sat at a table with Kyla, Mariah, Chelsea, Dana, Leann, Alex, James, and Kaitlyn.  That was a hoot.  And then out of no where James says, "Hey, Kaytee.  You look really pretty tonight."  TOTALLY caught me off guard.  I probably blushed like a freaking moron.  Then my choir director came to me and told me that if Concert Choir won, he wanted me to accept the award with Brad.  HOW FUCKING SWEET IS THAT? Answer: Beyond sweet.  Turns out, we did win.  We not only won that, we won everything.  Quite literally, everything.  Every award we qualified for, we won.  Thirteen awards.  We swept the competitiion.  We are so badass. GO BHS CHOIR!  Anyway, after the dinner, there was this dance. FUNNEST. THING. EVER.  Everyone was out on the dance floor (at least all the cool kids were).  The lights were dimmed.  The music was loud.  I danced for hours and hours.  It was so hot, but it was so worth it.  That was by far the most fun day of the trip.  The most fun day of the year. For serious.  I slept much better that night.
April 20-Doom day. haha.  This was the very first day we had free time.  We could go to any museum we wanted.  We could go this awesome Earth Day rally going on in the mall.  We could do whatever we wanted.  One problem, it was pouring rain.  So, it was kind of drizzling a little, so me, Kyla, Mariah, Chelsea, Leann, and Sarah went to the Earth Day rally.  People were smoking pot left and right.  People were dancing. Singing. Talking.  It was amazing.  And then BAM! BAAAAM.  It poured.  I'm not talking a heavy rain fall.  I mean you might as well have been in the shower.  A hard shower.  A shower that kind of hurts because it's raining that hard.  So the six of us are laughing hysterically and running around, trying to seek shelter.  That was impossible.  We were in a wide open field.  So we got absokutely soaked to the bone.  It was so much fun as it happened.  But then we realized that we still had three hours of free time and no way of getting dry clothes.  We were wet.  We were freezing.  We were tired.  We were hungry.  That is a terrible combination.  Terrible.  We spent most of our time sitting in the Museum of Natural History, wallowing in self pity.  It was still kind of fun, though.  However, when it was finally time to go, we had to go straight to dinner.  No changing clothes.  No drying off.  Dinner soaking wet.  That was miserable.  And we had sea food.  I hate sea food. Some sweet, sweet boys kept me warm.  That was lovely.  As soon as I got back to the hotel, I took a nice, hot shower.  Blissful.
April 21:  This was the day we were going to go back home.  We had a later flight so we had the day to just hang out around the hotel.  I played some poker with a few boys.  Made some friends.  Good times.  Then we went to the airport.  We flew.  I borrowed Mariah's book called Night.  I finished it on the flight.  That book is truly amazing.  Sad, but amazing.  We had another layover in San Fran.  This one was way longer.  Three hours.  Mariah and I got a smoothie.  Then we found this store that had massage chairs.  We spent a good hour just sitting there, relaxing.  That was pure bliss. Whew.  We boarded the plane.  We got on the bus and then came back to the school.  We got back to school about 11:30 at night.  I was super eager to get home and I rolled my suitcase over my toe and nearly took the toenail off.  It bled.  A lot.  And hurt like a bitch.  Perfect way to end my day, right? I was exhausted.  I had school the next day. Booo.
April 27:  I have some friends in a band called Life Everlasting.  Look them up. They're amazing.  Anyway, Friday night they had a concert and I went with a big group of friends.  We watched them play, hung out for a bit, and then I drove Mariah and Kyla back to La Verne.  We crashed Colin's party.  Made some friends.  Got some Starbucks.  Started a dance party in the corner.  Then I took the girls home.  To my house that is.  My brother was home for the weekend and he brought friends.  Three friends.  All adorable.  There was one boy in particular that caught me eye, but whew.  I love my life.  And they were staying with us for two nights.  Hell yes? Yes.  Then I took the girls home.
April 28:  Woke up to a house full of adorable boys.  And my brother.  Hung out most of the day.  Then the boys went to Six Flags.  They invited me but I already had plans to go to the movies.  Later that night, I went with Devon and Kyla to see Forgetting Sarah Marshall.  Okay, that movie was hilarious.  Honestly.  So funny.  So glad I saw it.   Soooo funny.   Came home to find NEW boys at the house.  My brother invited some of his marine friends over.  There were now a total of six cute boys in my house.  Nate, my brother, had two girls over also.  One girl was an absolute bitch and didn't even look at me.  The other girl was super duper nice and we talked for a pretty long time.  Then I talked to the boys for a long time.  My life rocks.  I admit it.
April 29:  The boys left.  Sad day.
May 2:  Life Everlasting had another show.  I went with Kyla, Mariah, and Krissie.  We got there early so we hung out in my car.  Then Alex, who is in the band, came over and talked with us.  He is so nice and funny.  Then Michael, who is also in the band, came over.  Bonding occurred.  Then we all went in.  Enjoyed the show.  Krissie, Mariah, Kyla, and I went to Chili's after.  We talked and laughed and had a jolly good time.  Then we went to Target and bought these ridiculously amazing glasses for one dollar.  We were styling.
May 3:  I went to Kyla's house for a sleepover.  Mariah and Devon also went.  We hung out, ordered a pizza, requested a cute guy to deliver, weren't satisfied, and ate.  We went to Target and got Devon a pair of those slick glasses.  We got some ice cream with our badass glasses on.  Then we made a stop at Dana's party.  That was actually a lot of fun.  Then we went back to Kyla's house.  She took us for a cruise in her new car.  That was fun.  We went back to Kyla's house.  OH! By the way, Kyla's parents were out of town.  We had the house all to ourself.  =].  We decided to sleep in her parents bed.  We talked for hooooours.  Learned a lot about each other. haha.  Interesting.  For sure.  So fun. 
May 4:  We woke up, got ready, and got some Krispy Kreme.  We came home and ate half our body weight in donuts.  That was amazing.  Then I went home.  My mom was having a grad night meeting.  That meant 3 woman were over.  And I wasn't allowed to leave my room because grad night is this big secret.  Siiigh.  They didn't leave until really late.
May 5:  The v. boys tennis qualified for CIF finals.  Their first round was on Monday.  Kelsey was there.  We went to In-N-Out and talked.  She's so nice to talk to.  Then at around 6:30, I went to the City Hall because they were having this Military Honor Night for the families.  Every family that had a new member serving in the military was invited to be honored.  So me, my mom, and my grandma went.  I saw a boy there that I had a crush on last year.  He was in my math class and then he joined the Air Force.  He looked so adorable in his uniform.  Anyway, it was a nice little ceremony.  When it was done, I went outside with my family.  I listened with very little interest as they talked to another family.  Then the boy I just mentioned came out.  We talked for a pretty long time.  My mom talked to his dad.  And I would have loved it if my grandma talked to his dad also.  But she insisted on talking to him.  I wanted him to myself but, nooooo! Grandma.  *Rolls eyes*  It was a really nice talk, though. 
May 6: The boys continued their CIF finals.  Kaitlin, Rachel, and Kelsey were all there.  I talked to them for a long time.  It's always nice talking to them.  They're awesome.  Awesoooooome.  The rest of the day I spent stressing out.  My portfolio for senior project was due the next day.  I know most of you don't know what that is.  All you need to know is that senior project is worth a good portion of your grade and if you don't pass, you don't graduate! WOOO! No stress whatsoever! I stayed up damn late for that.
May 7:  Turned that bitch in.  Spent most of first period adding little touch ups.  Getting signatures.  Making it more clear.  But I turned it in and it felt great.
May 8:  Today.  Finally.  I had the AP Literature test.  That was long, but I didn't find it too hard.  I'm hoping I got a 4 maybe.  The rest of the day was pretty nice.  When we finished, there was only about 15 minutes of fourth period left, so Elise and I went to the computer lab and played Tetris.  I suck at Tetris.  And the freshmen in that class were quick to point it out. haha.  Good times.  Then in 5th period we danced.  That's choir and we were doing choreography for pop show in a few weeks.  So much fun.  Then I came home and took a nap. WOO!!!
I'll add pictures later.  I'm far too tired (and lazy) now.

Yet another monthly update. Hoorah!

March 2- I went shopping with Mariah and Elise for cute day dresses to wear to my birthday party.  We had a lot of fun. And...it was very windy that day. That's about it.
March 6- My birthday! The day I became legal! WABAM! I went to the Varsity away game. It was a lot of fun. And the guy I fancy told me I had nice eyes. *Swoon*
March 7- My choir had a festival at APU...which is a college for those that don't know.  I actually had a lot of fun and Kyla, Mariah, and I had a lot of laughs. 
March 8 and 9 - My birthday partyyyyy! Elise planned my entire party for me.  It was supposed to be a surprise party, but she can't keep anything from me. haha. Elise picked everyone up and we went to her house.  We put on our dresses and did our hair and makeup. <3 Then we went outside and did the pinata. Yes...I'm serious.  Elise got a giant number three as the pinata.  I thought it was funny.  Well, I went first and I broke it off the string it was supposed to hang from. So, Elise volunteered to hold the pinata as we swung at it. Good times.  Then we went to dinner and that was a lot of fun.  A really cute waiter was working and I was like, "Heck yes. I'm legal." But not out loud. Then my mom surprised me by bringing a Phantom of the Opera guy to come and sing to me at the restaurant.  I think she was trying to embarrass me, but I was too confused and giggly to be embarrassed.  I've got pictures and videos of that shindig.  Then the restaurant sang to me. How many cute guys can work at one place? Apparently, four. <3  Then we paid and went to Hollywood Video and got Sydney White, Blades of Glory, and Disturbia.  We went to Elise's house and changed to our PJ's.  We watched Sydney White and laughed and had a joyous time.  Then Elise set up the fondue stuff.  We watched Blades of Glory during that.  Then we went to bed.  When we woke up, we watched Disturbia.  I effing love Shia.  I want his babies.  Mmmm. Theeeeen, we went to IHOP in our PJ's. Good stuff. Gooood stuff.
March 14- We didn't have school.  I had a doctor's appointment and I got a shot.  I didn't mind. Then Elise and I went to Disneyland.  We bascically got soup, went on two rides, and went home. That's the beauty of having a pass.
March 15- I had to take a stupid math test because I didn't do too well on my math score for SAT's.  Lizzy had to take it also.  We had a real nice laugh about that.  It was fun, though, because there were about 4534543 guys there (apparently, boys are worse at math than girls...or something).  And I found out about 4534 of them are going to the same college as me. Swell!  Later that night, I went to dinner with some friends I hadn't really hung out with in foreverrrr.  Lizzy, Becca, X, and then me and Elise.  It was so much fun and we had a chance to catch up which was nice. Then we kind of drove around for a long time.  Then Elise and I went to X's house and watched Ocean's 11. Good movie. Matt Damon is my future husband.  I hope he doesn't mind that I'm having Shia's children.
March 18- Mariah and I went to Kyla's house to try on dresses.  It was so much fuuuuuuun. And we all look tres amazing.
March 20- Boys tennis ended early so I went to Elise's house and surprised her with my presence.  We ended up going for a drive and just doing things best friends do.
March 21- My school was having this little function where the seniors on our debate team were going to have debates with some teachers.  I went and it was so much fun.  There were a lot of funny moments that wouldn't be funny unless you were there. It was great.  Then Elise and I went to Starbucks and met up with Al.  We sat in his car and talked for about 45 minutes.  Then he had to leave so Elise and I got our drinks and just drove around. We do that a lot.
March 23- I went to church...and there was this adorable elderly couple in front of us that kept holding hands and dancing and jumping.  It was precious. I went to my uncle's house after.  It was pretty uneventful. Not exactly the best Easter of my life. But, eh...
March 25- My choir had another festival at a church about 3 seconds from our school.  The other school that was there was our rival school. If it were a competition, we have would have killed them. 'Twas not. Later that night we had a choir performance.  It was fun, I guess.
March 26- We had two concerts that night in a row for choir.  It was long but pretty fun.
March 27- Elise and I went out to eat...fun?
March 30- I went antique shopping with Kyla and Mariah.  It was so much fun and we all got cute things for relatively cheap.  I want to do it again soon.
April 2- I stayed home from school today. I felt like I was dying, almost literally. It was bad. I feel a little better now.  I hope I feel a lot better by tomorrow because I need to go back to school. Blahh.

Why, hello.

I don't know if I told you all this (probably not...it's not really exciting to anyone but me....), but my calendar is Harry Potter.  Jealous?  Good!

Jan. 31 Finals day.  Which means I got out of school super early.  So Elise I went from my house to her house to the store to get some chocolate to her house again to Bucca di Peppo.  I probably spelled that wrong.  Oh well.  Anyway, we went to dinner with most of the V. tennis girls.  It was nice seeing everyone again.  We got caught up.  Shared stories.  It was great.  Then Elise and I went to Target and bought condoms.  Why?  I don't know.  Just because.
February has been a busy month.
Feb. 1 Second day of finals.  Took pictures for choir.  'Twas fun. Kyla, Mariah, and I took a buddy picture.  It is tres adorable.  I went to the dermatologist that day and got two moles removed.  Hoorah! 
Feb 3 Disneyland.  I would tell you things that happened, but all my Disneyland trips are a blur now.
Feb. 4 Went to the grocery store with Elise and bought a ton of junk food.  Then we went to her house and watched the Departed as we ate.  Then we took her dog for a walk and just happened to "accidentally" walk by the house of the guy she likes.  They live right next to each other...so we aren't like stalkers or anything.
Feb. 5 Elise came over.  And then we went to the park.  Then we went to the boys V. basketball game.  So.  Hot.  Whew.
Feb 6 Starbucks and Elise's house.  We worked on our presentation for English.  And by we I mean she.  She did basically everything.  Love her.
Feb. 7 During school, I was sent to the vice principal and I was like "WHAT?!" I'm not one to get called to the v. principal's office.  So I get there and I see my friend from tennis walking into his office.  She got called in also which made me feel better because she's awesome.  Turns out, every sports captain was called in for a meeting.  There was going to be this unifying rally day with our rival school.  The captains from each school were going to participate in games and friendly competitions.  At the end of the day, all of the honor roll students were told to go to "Snow Day".  Now, I live in southern California.  The only snow I see is in Big Bear and Mammoth.  What my school had done was brought down like...ten tons of snow for the honor roll students to play in.  They also brought big bounce house things.  Well, Gold (aka 4.0 or above), got to go play first.  I'm gold. WAHOO!  So, I ate my pizza and hung out with my friends while other kids were trapped in class. After school, I went to my friend's soccer game. I couldn't find him after the game so I just left.  Later that night I went to the boys basketball game again.
Feb. 8 Elise and I presented in English.  It went well.
Feb. 9 Mariah's sleepover for her birthday.  So. Much. Fun.  And we took so many pictures.  We played games and watched She's the Man.  How awesome is that movie!?
Feb. 10 Mariah's party continued.  Almost everyone went home.  It was just me, Elise, Mariah, Kyla, and Liz left.  Mariah, Kyla, Elise, and I did crazy makeup and wore crazy clothes.  Then we had a bit of a photoshoot.  Liz took our pictures.  It was epic. There will definitely be some pictures of that.  Expect it!
Feb. 12 Mariah, Chrissy, and I played some tennis after school.  The boys tennis was having their tryouts.  The V. boys coach was the V. girls coach, so I know him majorly well.  It's Randy!  Well, the three of us played.  Then Randy pulled me aside and asked if I would be interested in being a stat girl for the boys.  It was a big heck yes from me.  So, I am now officially a stat girl for boys tennis.  I was a stat girl last year also. Anyway, the JV coach is brand new and he's a sub at our school.  All the girls at our school think he is just S0 H0TT L0LZ!  I don't think he's that special. He's cute, but not that cute.
Feb. 13 I went to practice.  Randy had me drill the new boys.  It was so much fun.  And I taught the new coach a few things.  Mariah came and hit with me for awhile.  We went to Quiznos after.
Feb 14 YAY!  I got up at 4:30am because my mom, grandma, and I had to catch a flight to Chicago for my brother's graduation from Navy boot camp.  I hadn't seen him in two months, so I was majorly excited.  Let me tell you something, Chicago has some gorgeous boys. WHEW!  By the time we got to our hotel, we were pooped.  We ordered food and ate in the room.  Then we went to bed because we had to get to the base really early in the morning for the graduation. 
Feb. 15 I slept terrible the night before.  Stupid hotel pillows.  I woke up with a major headache and I felt really nauceous.  My mom and grandma were already almost completely ready because they were going to go down to breakfast.  Before they left, I threw up.  I felt so much better. My mommy made me tea before they went down to breakfast.  I turned the TV on and watched Saved by the Bell while I got ready.  'Twas awesome.  Anyway...Oh! I forgot to mention that my uncle Kevin came also.  He just stayed in a different room and he had a different flight than us.  ANYWAY, we arrived at the naval base at around 7:30.  We had to wait in a big security line.  It. Was. Freezing.  Like, literally.  I'm from southern California.  The coldest it gets is, like, 40 degrees.  And that's really rare.  It was 17 degrees that day.  Something like that.  It was brutal.  So we got through security and walked forever to the massive auditorium..thing where the graduation was held.  I'm not going to lie.  It was awesome.  My brother wrote me a letter that said, "I have good news.  You won the hottest sister competition.  Everyone wants to know if you're going to the graduation."  I was well happy.  There was a lot of things in the ceremony that I didn't understand, but I'm sure it was important...And then each division was introduced as they walked in.  My brother was in Division 091.  I almost cried.  I hadn't seen him for forever and he was this Navy guy now.  I was so proud.  So, I sat through the long ceremony and then "LIBERTY" was announced.  Basically, they were free to see their families.  It was so good seeing him again.  I met a few of his friends.  It was awesome. AWESOME.  Nate came back to the hotel with us and just relaxed.  He enjoyed the luxury of a full bed and a shower to himself.  At around 8 he went back onto base.
Feb. 16 Me, my mom, my grandma, Uncle Kevin, and Nate went sight seeing.  It was very cold again.  It was around 27 degrees.  Everyone kept saying it was so much warmer than it had been.  I thought they were high.  We went to the Navy Pier, Sears Tower, and the Shedd Aquarium.  It was fun.  Tiring, but fun.  Nate and I got to talk which was nice.  Nate watched TV and just relaxed in the room before he had to go back to base. 
Feb. 17 My brother's birthday!  He turned 21 that day!  My big bro! <3.  Most of the day was just spent with the family.  Then I went on base with my brother and my mom.  We went into the lounge area and there were 56734 cute Navy boys in their cute little uniform playing pool or other arcade games.  I was the only girl and it was SWEET!  (Actually, I was the only girl over 16 and under 24 pretty much everywhere I went...I didn't hate it)  Anyway, I met a lot more of his friends.  Then my mom and I went to the car and waited for Nate as he got his phone from his friend.  When Nate came back to the car, he said, "All of the guys think you're hot.  They're like, 'Your sister is so hot!'" That made my life. Seriously.  I wanted to die right then and there because I was guaranteed to die happy.  Then the family went out to dinner for Nate's birthday.  It was out last night with him.   It was really nice.
Feb. 18 Got up super early again to fly back home.  It was awesome.  Just the whole going home thing.  I missed Nate already.  How sad is that?
Feb. 19 Boys tennis practice.  Then I went to my grandma's house to pick up pictures from the trip.
Feb. 20 Randy had Kelsey (the other stat girl) and I play a match again some boys.  It started to rain.  It was fun.
Feb. 21 More tennis.
Feb 23 The boys had a match on Saturday.  I arrived at around 10am for the V. boys.  It was at an all boys school that we were playing. Kelsey couldn't go.  I was literally the only girl among 40+ boys, half of which hadn't seen a girl in a long time.  It was so awesome.  I put my keys in my friend Jakub's bag. The V. boys won.  JV got there around 1pm.  The V. Boys left so the JV could play.  I was hanging out with the subs when I remember my car keys were with Jakub.  Luckily, my friend Cody knew his number and called him.   So Jakub brought my keys back and we all had a good laugh about that.  After the first round of boys, it started to rain really hard so the match was cancelled.  It was just a 'scrimmage' type match, so it didn't count and it didn't need to be rescheduled.  It was fun.
Feb. 25 Elise and I went to the Bagelry and talked.  I discovered 'Jakub was here' written on my lanyard for my keys.  I laughed.  Then I went to practice and Randy had me play doubles with him on my team against the two best guys on the V. team.  I was terrified.  Their serves were scary.  I may have screamed...a little.  They ended up killing us 1-6.  However, the one set we got on them was during my serve. BOOYAH!
Feb. 26 Went with Kelsey to the V. boys away match.  It was so much fun.  Everyone bonded.  It was magical.
Feb 27 We had a sex and STD assembly thing.  It was actually really funny and informative.  I liked it.  I went to the away match by myself with JV to our rival school.  I bonded with those guys, also.  Now all the tennis boys are saying hi to me at school. 'Tis awesome.  We killed them.
Feb. 28  The boys had practice.  Coach had them playing matches so Mariah, whom had come to hit me with me again, and I went to watch some of the track meet.  That was also against our rival school.  Then Mariah and I talked for 4534 hours.  We bonded like crazy.  Here's a fun coversation.  One of many:
Me: I hope if I marry him, our children are tan like him and not super pale like me.
Mariah: You'd probably have albino kids.
Me: (Laughing) Probably.
Mariah: And when you took them out in public, people would think you cheated on him.  They'd see the resemblance between you and the albino kids, but not him.
Me: (Laughing really hard)
Then...okay.  Back story!  My brother played soccer for most of his life.  Seriously.  I've seen more soccer than one person ever should.  I still love it.  Anyway, there's this one boy that Nate played soccer with most of his soccer career.  His name is Adam and I've literally had a crush on him since I was about 8.  Well, his brother is on the JV tennis team.  I'm really close to that whole family because of soccer.  So, their dad came to pick Nick up and he came over to talk to me.  He told me that Adam saw me a few days ago playing tennis and he couldn't believe that was me.  And he said, and I quote, that I was "good looking".  AHHH!!!!  Keep in mind, he's three years older than me and I've always, always considered him off limits.  And now he thinks I'm good looking! FKGNLKGNRGR!!!!!!!
Today: Nothing really happened today...rather boring.

I really need to update this more often so my updates aren't so massive.

So, life is hectic to say the least.

I got a Deluxe pass to Disneyland so I've been living there basically.

Let's see.

November 26: I returned to school after being gone because of my dad.  My school surprised the seniors with the panoramic picture. They didn't tell us about it because they didn't want cliques to wear the same color shirt and everything.  Luckily, I wore red that day so I should stand out.
Nov. 27: I was surprised with a puppy! My mom's boss bought me a Maltese. Cutest thing of all time? Indeed. I named her Jasmine, aka Jazzie.
Nov. 30: Dougie Poynter of McFly had his 20th birthday.  I wasn't directly involved in that, but I definitely felt it was worth mentioning.
Dec. 7: The tennis girls had their banquet.  I cried in front of everyone when the seniors had to talk about their heroes and role models. That's always a good time........Other than that, it was awesome! We got evacuated and it was drizzling. Someone went wrong with the heaters and there was smoke so the firemen came. Awesome.
Dec. 14: I went to Disneyland for choir.  That was fun-nay-amazingly fun.  There were five of us-Mariah, Chelsea, Kyla, Elise, and myself.  We spent the entire day going on rides and making friends with employees.  This one guy let us cut in line so we were first on the Matterhorn.  Sweet guy. Then we performed and all went well.  Then the five of us got super tired but we still had about an hour and a half before we had to leave.  We went into the Lincoln Theater, which is now the Magical 50 Years of Disneyland Theater...or something like that.  There was a gorgeous boy that was working there. Whew.  And we made friends with a worker named Garrett, aka Papa Disney, and Karen, aka Mama Disney.  Papa Disney told us that the hottie's name was Kyle, aka Lover Disney.  Well, the five of us were joking around, saying that one of us should tell Kyle that he's delicious. (Don't ask).  So, Chelsea hops up, grabs Kyle's hand, and says, "Excuse me, sir, but you're delicious."  Most amazing thing ever.  Now we use that line all the time.  So funny. So, we spent the rest of the time in there, talking to Lover Disney and Papa Disney.  Papa Disney sang for us.
Dec. 15: I went to a Christmas performance thing at my grandma's church.  There was a bloody gorgeous guy in the audience a few rows ahead of me.  He a guy in the choir gave me his number.  <3
Dec. 16: My brother had his going away party because he was going into the Navy. So, it was me, my mom, Nate, and some of our aunts, uncles, and cousins.  We have a large family...That was kind of sad...
Dec. 17: Went to the dentist to get a cavity filled.  Hottest intern guy of all time.  He asked me how old I was and I told him almost eighteen and then he smiled which made me smile.  Bloody handsome.  And then my dentist gave me the shot and said, "Needles don't bother you, do they?" And I just shook my head because the needle was still in my mouth and he said, "That's good."  Did I mention my dentist is really hot, too?
Dec. 19: My brother left. Booo.
Dec. 21: Went to the park with my best friend and took pictures and just hung out. Love her to pieces.
Dec. 23: Harry Judd from McFly celebrated his 22nd birthday.  Yet again, just thought it was worth mentioning.
Christmas Eve and Christmas basically sucked.  Christmas Eve, I went to my grandma's house like always.  Well, my uncle married this woman a few years back that already had four kids.  I've never liked my "aunt" or her kids except for Eric, the only boy.  So, my uncle and "aunt" came over and brought Eric, Katie, April, and April's husband, Ken.  Ken is freaking hilarious.  I love him.  Anyway, my "aunt" is a "Christian" but she critisizes everything everyone else does.  She never lets my uncle talk.  She always has to be right.  Blah.  And all four of her kids are seriously geniuses.  Eric skipped two grades.  Katie skipped one.  April is a lawyer or something like that.  Then all of us played a game called Boggle. It's basically a word search type thing where you try to make words out of...I can't explain it.  Google it if you care.  Anyway, it requires intelligence.  Now, I'm smart, but not compared to these people.  And they get vicious.  They're like, "TORT IS NOT A REAL WORD!"  It's scary.  Basically, it felt like it was their Christmas and I was imposing when I was the only grandkid there actually related by blood.  So suck that!
Christmas was nice-ish.  I went to my aunt on my dad's side's house.  I love her.  And I love her kids.  I love all of my actual cousins.  Anyway, it was nice, but it didn't feel right without my dad or brother.
Dec. 26: I got my wisdom teeth pulled.  That was awesome.  And I'm serious.  When they put you under and you wake up, it's like you're intoxicated.  I am now known as "happy drunk" to everyone that witnessed me that fine day.
I spent a good portion of my vacation recovering.  That kind of sucked.
During break, I also went to Disneyland a lot.  Most of the employees know us or at least recognize us.  Us being me and Elise.
I went to a few of the boys' Varsity basketball games.  One word: Hot.  It doesn't hurt that the guy I adore is on the team  It definitely doesn't hurt that he's amazing.  True story, I like this guy...let's call him Dumber.  Well, Dumber's best friend, Dumb, likes me.  My best friend likes Dumb.  Who knows who Dumber likes.  Oh, what a tangled web we weave.
I've been spending oodles of time with Elise.  We're practically attached...all the time.

Picture time!
Puppy!

Best Friends:


Me and the broha:

Go to this site:

Moi:

The man of my dreams:


Alright! I'm done

My daddy passed away Friday, November 9, 2007 at 8:30 in the pm.
I still feel numb. I try not to think about it because it's so much easier not to think about it than it is to accept the fact that I'll never see him again. It scares me for a few reasons.
1--I feel like there were two people in this world that really understood me.  One of those people is my best friend Elise and the other person was dad.  My dad knew me so completely and I understood him.  We had so much in common that everyone always said, "You are truly your father's daughter" or "You and your dad are just alike."  And it hurts to know that I lost that person. I still have Elise (thank God), but it's not the same.
2--My dad was the greatest dad of all time.  Some of you may read this and be like, "Psh, no way her dad could be better than mine."  Well, believe it.  He loved my brother and my mom and me so unconditionally that I wondered every day how I got to be so lucky to have him for a dad.  And I'm a huge Daddy's girl, so this is really, really hard for me.  I can't believe that someone who loved me so much is gone.  I just have this sickening feeling that I'll never be loved as much again.
3--My dad would do anything to protect me.  He would jump in front of a bullet or a car without a second thought.  He often joked about polishing his rifle when I brought a boy home.  As stupid as it sounds, I don't feel safe anymore.  I don't feel like anyone would risk everything to save me.  That might sound conceited or something, but once someone is willing to do that for you, it changes your outlook a bit.
4--My dad and I had a sense of humour that only he and I could really understand.  We would tease my mom and gang up on my brother.  I could always count on him to make me smile or laugh.  He had such a contagious laugh, too.  So warm and hearty.  I miss his laugh so much.  I think I wish more than anything I could hear his laugh again.  And it kills me to know that I have, what, 60 more years?  Maybe? He could have easily have had thirty more years.  Thirty years left of my life and he won't be in it.  I haven't even had twenty years, and then to add another thirty on top of that?  I feel like we were robbed.  I mean, he was supposed to walk me down the aisle and be there when I had my babies.  He was supposed to babysit and spoil my kids.
5--My dad and I had a special connection. A special bond that I can't even begin to describe.  All I know is that no one, no one, can take that from me.  Everyone who saw my dad and I could tell that we had something.  And everyone that knew me dad knew what a great guy he was.  I'm honoured to have known him, let alone been his "Littlest Angel". 
I can't believe he's gone.  I can't believe I have to finished my senior year of high school without him.  I have to started college, finish college, get a job, get married, have kids, have grandkids all without him.
I know that he's always with me and I always thought that would be a sense of comfort.  And in a way it is, but it's not the same.  It will never be the same.

The moral of all of this?  Please, please cherish every second with your loved ones.  My dad and I had a great relationship and we made sure we knew that we loved each other.  He made sure everyone knew that he loved them.  If you love someone, tell them.  Give hugs.  Kisses. Anything.  Trust me, you'll look back on those hugs and kisses one day and smile.

And here are some pictures of my daddy and me.

The day I was born.


I was about 7. haha. <3

A lot has happened since my last entry.
First of all, on 21 October, I went to dinner with some of my very best friends that I haven't really talked to for a long, long time.  It was really nice.  We ate and then we went for some ice cream...and then we just went to the park and hung out.  It was a lot of fun.
The next day, 22 October, my daddy turned 50.  So many people were over.  It was crazy.  And, like always, I babysat the little tykes.  We had practice that day, but it got cut short because of the smoke from the SoCal fires.
The smoke caused the next two days of practice to be cancelled as well.
And then.  The day the Varsity tennis girls had been waiting for all season.  26 October 2007.  The second match against our rivals, Wilson, and the match that determines whether we're league champs or if we have to share the title with stupid Wilson.  Since we beat Wilson the first time, they had one loss on their record.  We were undefeated, so if we lost against Wilson, we would only have one loss as well, therefore, tying with them for first.  The match was intense.  You couldn't even cut the tension with a knife.  A chainsaw was necessary. Their coach was a real bitch, too.  She personally attacked our girls and called our school ghetto because "their girls could afford $100 lessons". And then my best friend, Elise effing White, turned around and said, "And that's why we beat you, right?"  Zing!  Bottom line.  We won! We're league champs! We're 8-0 undefeated.  This is the first time in 6 years. 



That would be V. Tennis doing our own personal cheer after we won. Go Bearcats!
And then, everything went downhill...again. We had practice on Monday and we had just starting hitting when my brother came and got me.  He said it was bad news and I freaked out.  I got my stuff together and he told me that my dad had had enough and he wanted to be sedated with the goal that he wouldn't wake up.  So we get home, talk to my mom and dad, and then we talk to the hospice nurse. We all said our final goodbyes.  I went to bed feeling sick because I thought I would never get to see my dad again.
I wake up the next morning feeling terrible.  I look into my parents room, expecting to see my dad asleep on the bed.  Um, yeah, no one was in the bed.  I had a mini panic attack.  There's no way he was already gone?  The nurse said it could take days, sometimes weeks for the patient to fully succumb.  And surely my mom or someone would wake me up, yes? So I went into a frantic search for my mom.  Then...I hear a toilet flush.
*sigh* Turns out my dad just wasn't ready for the sedation last night so he didn't even take it.  But, he was going to take it that night instead.
So, once again, the family says our final goodbyes.  My mom comes in a few hours after and tells me he took the pills.  So I'm thinking, 'Okay, no turning back now." I went to bed feeling like I was going to be sick.  I didn't get almost any sleep.  Then, I wake up and find my dad sitting up in bed.  I was perplexed, befuddled, bewildered, every other synonymous word for confused. Turns out, it didn't work.  My dad is ready mentally, but physically, he's too strong.
Talk about an emotional roller coaster.
So, I go back to school 1 November.  First period, a cricket is hopping around my desk. Second period, a spider crawls up my leg.  Break, I start my period and leak.  Beginning of third period, I'm home changing clothes.  That night I didn't sleep at all for two reasons.  One, serious, monstrous cramps.  Two, the inside of my ear was bleeding.  That's never happened before, so I'm a little confused.  I wasn't even scared...just confused.  So I go to my brother and he just says, "That's not good, Kaytee."  Thanks, Dr. Nate.  So I wake up my mom.  She helps me control the bleeding because that baby was bleeding like mad. 
I got about two hours of sleep.  I wake up for school and it feels like my ovaries are being squeezed and stomped on.  I can't hear out of my ear.  I swear I'm going to be sick.
I go to first period.  Then I come home for a doctor appointment.  Turns out, I ruptured my ear drum.  The doc seemed kind of wary about my ear because there was still "a lot of fresh blood".  Fan-friggin-tastic. I took the rest of the day off because...I could...and...I was in a lot of pain.

That's about it!

All I need is someone to talk to.  I feel like if I had a solid hour to just talk, I would feel a lot better.  But I can't.  I need to vent about school, tennis, friends, family, classes, senior project, stupid high school drama, dad, and about a million other things.  I always go to my mom when I need to talk.  I can't very well go to my friends and complain to them about, well, them.  I don't want to drag a new friend into my screw up world right now, especially when I'm so on edge.  So, naturally, I just want to go to my mom like I always do.  Who understands the things in my life better then my mom?  She knows what the family is going through, obviously.  She's heard me vent about school and friends before, so she can just jump in and recall certain characteristics of certain people.  It's exactly what I need, but I can't even do that.  I start talking and then she has to go check on my dad.  I'm in the middle of a story and a noise sounds from my dad's room and she has to go see what happened.  I understand that my dad needs her a hell of a lot more than I do right now.  I'm not mad at her.  I just need to talk and I have no one to talk to.  That's a terrible feeling.  Seriously, terrible.

Things aren't going well with my dad.  He's not getting enough oxygen to the brain so he's talking crazy.  Plus, he's on a ton of medication which only makes it way worse.  It's almost as if he has Alzheimer's disease, just not.  Like he'll have a plate of food in his lap and then he'll set it aside.  Then a few seconds later he'll say that he's hungry.  My mom has to explain to him that the plate of food is his.  I can't even explain how hard it is to see him like that.  My dad has always been my best friend.  I'm more like him than anyone else on this planet.  He's always been so level headed and logical.  He's my role model and my hero.  There's no way to explain it.  I wish everyone that's ever lived could know him.  He's such a great man.  No matter what happens, he'll always be the best dad anyone could ever ask for.  Ever. It's not fair that something so terrible is happening to someone so wonderful.  I don't understand it.  I want to understand so bad. 

I'm not sure how much longer I can do this.  I'm losing it. 
And now I have no one to talk to.

Been awhile.

Let's see...
October 1-We took pictures for tennis.  Hopefully it doesn't take too long to get them back.  Then after that, we went to Rachel's house and made shirts.  They are so cute.  I'll try to find pictures and post them. 
October 4- We played our rivals.  Wilson.  Wilson wins league every year.  We haven't beat them in six-seven years.  Guess what.  We won!  It was 10-8.  We play them again next week.  If we tie them next week, we still win league!  And if they beat us 8-10, we have to count up games.  We have to come back with a vengeance because they want it so bad.  Go Bonita!  We got it Bearcats!
October 6- I worked my very last Irwindale.  It was actually pretty sad.  I've been doing that since Freshmen year.  I've gone to every single Irwindale except for one.  I've attended the most...I should get a trophy. Totally kidding.  No I'm not.  Anyway, I was Elise's runner.  It worked out.  It was fun.
October 7- My uncle, aunt, and my cousin Dylan came to the house.  Wow.  Entertaining an eight/nine-year-old is hard work.  Especially when all I feel like doing is sleeping.  So, we jumped on the trampoline, played these stupid computer games that he's into, made brownies, read Shakespeare to him, and listened to his 45 minute response when I asked him what his favorite movie was about.  Woooow.

Other things happened, but they're either not very significant or they're very significant. So...Until next time I suppose.

Bored?  McFly fan?
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Adieu!

Kind of...

You know who I would like to thank?  The person that came up with tissue boxes.  How convenient are they? Answer: Extremely.  I hope whoever came up with that is rolling in the dough.

Speaking of tissues, I think it's so awesome how they stack the tissues into the box so it just keeps on coming.  You grab one, another comes out, ready to be used whenever your little heart desires. 

Keyboards are also very cool.  Pianos have to be tuned every so often.  Keyboards?  Heck no. 

How are puzzles made?  Is there a machine that cuts the pieces into random shapes?  I wonder who decides on the shapes...If I made a puzzle, I would have the machine cut the pieces into shapes of animals.  They would be pretty awesome.

Has anyone invented robots yet that can clean my room? I wonder how much they would be...

Speaking of money, how do you buy dogs online? How are they sent to you?  Strange thing, the internet.

You know Snapple Bottle Caps?  They have those facts on them? Like, "A goldfishes attention span is three seconds."  How the heck does anyone know that?  Who comes up with these facts?  Are these facts proven?

People are strange.  Who was the first person to walk up to a cow and say, "I'm going to drink whatever comes out of this odd looking thing under the cow."  Same with chickens.  "Whatever comes out of this creature shall be cooked and eaten!"

These are the questions that haunt me.

Weekends are amazing. Truly amazing. I think they should be longer, personally.

Homecoming is coming up. I definitely want to go, but I don't know if I want a date. Sounds weird, but whatever.  I wouldn't mind if my date was one of my guy friends.  Then we could all go in the usual group and just have fun. But I don't really want to go with, like, anyone else.
With that said, this guy that likes me wants to ask me.  I'm freaking out.  I really don't want to go with him, but I'm terrible with rejection. It would just suck.  Suck, suck, suck.  Like a hooker on a Friday night.

I recorded the third episode of Unsaid Things last night.  I love those girls.  Especially the Tremendous Trio, aka Nickee, Caitlin, and myself.  Good times.  Seriously good times.  We're talking about merch right now.  I'm so excited.

My daddy went into the hospital today for his treatment.  He'll be there for about a week.  I hate it, but I guess it's necessary. 

Well, to be quite honest I have absolutely nothing to update.  I'm just dead bored. 

Well, adieu for now.

I didn't go to school yesterday. 
I had to catch up today, but it wasn't so bad.
Tennis practice was cool.
Not much homework.
I'm pretty tired. 

Mehhh.